Snow on the ground
cold
money for food and gas this week
not oil
Space heaters
piles of blankets
layers of clothes suffice
Unknown days from eviction
from my home of 14 years
playing cat and mouse games with nameless owner
and their legal protectors
Thinking much these days about my current lot
how I got here …
my choices
those of others
factors beyond most anyone’s doing
Lot of tail chasing
endless circle
Body wracked with increasing pain and immobility
transient waves of
sadness
anger
hopelessness
fight and resolve
dissipating into a fog of suffocating weariness
Solitary like a pine tree left standing after the inferno in Paradise …
I am still motherfucking here
~ zjm
